Entry 500: 在爱里残废 非弄得伤痕累累

When I say I'm going to advance and move forward

I hesitated and looked back

I walked and paused

I slipped back.

Perhaps

It wasn't a clean one

Maybe

I don't know what truly follows

When I thought it is getting clearer

It became vague

Tell me..

Just tell me...

What does it really want?

I left it to die

And now I try to resusitate

While I'm bringing it back to life

I hesitated again.

Indecisiveness is killing me

The options in life

The choices that never seem to be giving me a break

I thought I found the answers to all my doubts

Then I realise they weren't addressed

They are not answered

My request, they ain't accepted truly.

Then again

Who could I point my fingers at

Afterall, I'm the one leading it on

Til I can sort out what's in the inner

I'll have to face all the loses that might come.

Yes, I anticipated them.

And I hope I'll really be ready to receive them all.