There are many things that change over time. Gradually or drastically. Be it habitual or sudden.
When things happen, we blame ourselves and the ones that affected us. We try to find a way out to make ourselves feel better. We forgot the times we smiled, we loved, we treasured.
Humans change. Feelings change. When we get weary and dreadful of all the disagreements, how long more can we hold on?
I've been through breakups. Most of us did. And of all the times we cried like hell, we pulled through. Here, some of us stood tall and happy again. Some of us go through the same hell over again. No matter where we are, we survived and will still survive.
Love is fragile. Being together means more than just what we could define.
Love is humble? No. It is selfish.
Love is free? No. It binds us.
Love cares? No, it is more self-centered than we thought.
Love drives great stories? No. It doesn't always give us happily ever after.
Love is unconditional? No. It demands for returns.
Love means that differences can be worked out? No. It always remembers how much we have compromised.
Love is holding on and never letting go? No. This is abstract. Death is bigger than love.
Love is a promise? No. It breaks promises.
and it goes on..
Whatever positive definition you can think of, they always come with a 'but'. It's either here or there.
It is not easy to love. It is even harder to stay together for the rest of our lifetime just dedicating our soul and heart to that special someone we vowed to be with till old age and death.
I know, we have happy times, sad times.. I'm not trying to pull Love down. You can feel so loved and the next moment or years down the road, you start to realize, it takes more than just love. And yet, it can't survive without love.
We can't forget the times we weren't supported, loved, cherished, committed, taken care of, accepted, understood, respected...We always remember those bad times cos their impact are always the greatest. Emptiness feels a million fold stronger than love.
I am in no position to lecture about Love. I've stumbled and did lots of regretful stuff. I'm not an expert and will never be. I'm still trying.. and I don't know if that would happen to us. I told him, I wish we will never go that way. I hope we can go on and on, holding hands..
I've never dreamed of something bigger than having a happy family. As young as I am, I envisage being grandparents with him. I want us to witness the major phases of our children's growth. This, my greatest and biggest dream, with him, with myself, with them.
P.S: Remind yourself the vows exchanged, the happy moments shared..