Been five months I havent log on to this site.. Hope all's well.
Just a sudden urge to post again. It's Friday, I should be looking forward. Part of me yeah.. But part of me.. It just feels .. Messy?
There are things I shouldnt say or specify. Just feel that I need a reason to smile every day. People come and go.. Friends? My ladies have always been somewhere.. But work, family and life got us tied down more than it did 6years ago. We have our own commitments and other cliques of friends now.. Time I thought we should have a maintenance check, we just couldnt gather all to meet up.
Well, as for work, new term has started. Trying to keep on track and hopefully I will manage my time better ! As for the current batch of children, I think my discipline for them is enough, if parents decided not to reinforce at home, I'll just leave the child to the hands of his own fate and consequences. Teachers are human.. Just because of the recent incident, Parents get judgemental, doubtful and untrusting. Well, most parents of my class's children are ok with my chinese partner and I still though. I think we should all reflect.. Yes, patience is one of the values that an educator must have. But i emphasize we are all humans. Considering someone repeatedly did something you have explained and said "No" or "Cannot", and the person still continues.. Wont your 'volcano' erupt? 'Nough said.
Marriage is, well, alright. Not all sweet moments but still communicating. Claire is mischievous and is pretty bad in discipline. Maybe I set too high an expectation to want to discipline her at her bare age of 1. She hardly understands the construction of this world. All we can do is to observe and watch out for her during her exploration.
Feelings wise.. Like I mentioned.. im confused with what I am feeling or how I feel many times now. Things that I shouldnt expect much, I know yet I cant help thinking.. How great if I could have it all! Laughs. Probably probably.. Probably.. It is the works of stress that got me mixed up. Maybe the imbalanced life haunted me so much. Maybe the thought of running away from those issues got me feeling uneasy.
I dont know.. Haha. Smiling wide when I still can. Cos I never know when tears will fall.
You too, the one reading this now.
Smile :) I believe it will wipe some unhappiness away. Maybe not all, but just a small amount will be great !
Happy Friday everyone <3
A song to share..
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